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You Don't Know Me

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I feign ignorance, put up a face you'd believe could never do wrong
Do you know me? Barely a score
I've been touched and felt in places unknown
And yes, I've always wanted more
I take substances to elevate my mood, to kill the pain, to relax, to unwind
I write depressing poems to fill to the void
Only to empty my heart right again
I have been to places I should not be caught dead in
I tell lies to get out of situations, don't we all?
I have played with hearts, toyed with emotions
Don't get me wrong, I'm changing
I've lived my youth to the full
I've had a jolly good time of my life
The drugs, the weed, the boys
Been there, done that
Now do you know me?
Nope, not well enough
Beneath the surface lies a heart writhing in pain
Both emotional and physical
Beneath my skin, flowing through my veins runs the devil's blood-black blood
I might be fuelled by hate, anger, pain
Yet I feel love and happiness on good days
Don't judge me by my actions or my past
They do not define who I am or maybe they do
I had to tango with my demons
To acknowledge the angels of my better nature.
 


I am Jasmine Osai
And now You Know Me

Here are my handles, Twitter and Instagram
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